Index of Strange Conditions

Abulia[1], 19-22, 29-37, 53

All About Eve, 0-90

Anorexia nervosa, 13-17

Background ballads, 22- 30

Beauteous flaws, 16, 25, 38, 55

Believing illusions:

apparent traits & idiosyncrasies, 25-41

aspiring relevance, 19-34, 38-

55, 60-82

happiness, 7-13, 28-30, 54, 61

Chance at clarity, 18-22, 27-50,

Chasing children, 30-43

Control, 19-25, 28-47,

Drug dependence, 23-30

Amethia, 24

Celexa, 22

Diazepam, 22-25 

Disclosure of truth, 29, 35, 42, 55

Dubious luxury, 26-35, 43

Elusive liaisons, 37-42, 51-53

Estranged lovers, 24-31, 49-56

Explanations & errors, 38-45, 65

Fine flattery, 27-32

Flashbacks, 22-29, 37-50

Fragile foes, 28-45

Giving, 19-42, 55-74

Great Expectations, 30-51

Grace, 12, 23, 40

High Fidelity, 16-36

Hubris, 18-23, 28-37, 48-80

Humility, 19-22, 34-52, 61-90

Immaculate conscience, 7-18, 45-72

Insolence, 16-18, 25, 47

Intelligence, 1-20, 30-36

Jaded joys, 34-62

Jaunts, 16-75

chronic toxicity, 19-30

insomnia, 3-60

retail therapy, 21-27, 34-43

Jerks, encounters with 14-28, 35-53

Keeping debts, 38-43

Kinks, 17-38, 51-53

Knowing secrets, 16-22, 30

Lack of tenderness, 29-43, 54-58

Lapses, 29-35, 55-68, 82-90

Late visits, 25-32, 51-53

Manic trysts, 22-25, 51-53

Midnight, 3-60

Myths, see Believing illusions

Neurasthenia[2], 44-90

Nictalopia[3], 38-90

Nostalgia, 25, 38, 51

Oppositions, 11-38, 49-56

Optional paralysis, see Abulia

Outcomes, 28-40, 51-66

Pallor, 23, 41, 60-68

Palpable deception, 19-23, 38-43

Physical fatigue, 25-38, 44-59, 60-68

                Loss of sexual interest, 39-41,

54-58, 60-90

               

Queer notions, 18-34, 49-59

Quibbled qualms, 24-32, 44-58

Quotes, see Great Expectations;

High Fidelity; All About Eve:

...like all happy endings, 
it was a tragedy, of my device,

 for I succeeded. –Finn, 51

What came first, the music 
or the misery? – Rob, 36

Why, if there's nothing else, 
there is applause. – Eve, 29

Receiving ridiculous accusations, 25-38

Recovering reverie, 23-45, 55-89

Removing guilt, 26-39, 61-77

Salvaging the essential, 54-69, 72-81

Scent of Sundays, 47-55, 61-70, 81-90

Surpassing superiors, 32, 44, 56-62

Terms of endearment, 24-28, 51-53

Therapeutic hymns, 22-28, 39-41

Trading traditions, 24-39, 51-74

Understated intentions, 26-35, 51-62

Unlearning derision 54-58, 72-90

Urging flight, 25-39, 51-65

Vanity & vision, 14-32, 51-53

Varied versions of thought, 21-42, 55-81

Volition, 22-35, 45-51, 74-82

Waning foresight, 46-53, 61-90

Wanting lover, 32-53

Wasting time, 19-26, 51-53

Xanthopsia[4] , 70-90

Xenoglossia[5], 51-53

Xenophobia[6], 33-44

Yearning, see Nostalgia

Years of silence, 14-24, 37-59

Yielding nothing, 19-25, 39-44, 61-90

Zazen meditations, 39-41, 55-83

Zero recall, 84-90

Zodiac reliance, 29-44, 51-53, 64-77

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[1] Aww, do I have to make a choice? I can't... I don't know!

[2] Who soiled the carpet? I told you to take out the trash! What? Why you good for nothing--!!!

[3] How do you look? Too dark. Doesn't matter.

[4] "Look at the stars, look how they shine for you & all the things you do. It was all yellow..." –Coldplay

[5] “Il mio amore, mein liebe, dragostea mea...” [Gibberish! It means nothing.]

[6] "I'm an alien, I'm a legal alien. I'm an Englishman in New York." –Sting [He scares me out of my wits. Ugh.]