Friday, July 17, 2015

Lately

                                                                 "Homesickness"
                                                             RenĂ© Magritte, 1940


1) I constantly had to remind myself that this is not my life. My eight hour job cannot define me. My brain dead mornings should not keep me from watching the sunrise. The three hours I spend working overtime cannot eat what is left of my existence. This is not my real life.


2) Four days ago, I wanted to disappear forever. Yesterday I no longer felt like leaving. I wonder if it's because I am content or simply too tired to go anywhere.


3) I believe in equilibrium, in the notion of stability, and it's illusions. It is a comforting kind of lie.


4) Truth scolds the ignorant. Some of us have never recovered.


5) I honestly just live to read. Perhaps even sometimes write.


6) What do you want out of life?


7) Save room for people, places, and events. Trust me. You'll never want to run out of things to look forward to.


8) I miss sleeping at night.


9) I don' know which is worse: The failure to forget a painful moment, or the failure to recall what it was that made you feel alive.


10) Now and then, I have to remind myself I am afraid to die.


11) This life is excruciatingly long and short at the same time.


13) Tell me why you're tired.


14) There is no way we're born to wait for weekends, buy shit to pretend it makes us happy, pay bills, and die.


15) And the city insists on defining me.


16) "Cruel is the gospel that sets us all free and takes you away from me." - Prefab Sprout


17) I stopped watching or reading the news.


18) Does your happiness outweigh your misery? Out of five instances, how often?


19) I will never get tired of finding beauty where it shouldn't be.


20) Don't go out too long without music.


21) What are you waiting for?